Author: bibbleskit

  • Meteor – Chapter 3

    Village

    <– Chapter 2 – Meadow

    A nearby rustling makes the hair on my neck stand on end. Immediately, I am on my guard. Standing very still, I survey the area, looking for the rabbit. There are the bushes, an open clearing with sparse trees, and lots of grass. Nothing seems to be happening. The tear shaped stone is still in my hand. I slowly put the necklace on, hold the stone up to my face and whisper out a call for Cas.

    Silence. I try again. I hear nothing but the ambient hum. One more time to be safe. Either this thing is broken, she lied to me, or she’s not awake. Does… whatever-it-is-she-is sleep? No way to find out until I hear back from her, I guess.

    I noticed it earlier but now I have the presence of mind to process it: there’s a huge bloodstain on the ground a few paces away from me, near the bushes. That must be where I was slain last. If it wasn’t, I’d be even more worried. I’m not sure I want to inspect it, though.

    Another rustle comes from the bush directly above the scarlet reminder of my death. For just a moment, I’d like to relax. I turn around, and just run toward the tree in the clearing I saw earlier. It doesn’t take me long to close the distance. I guess I can move pretty quickly now, too. I put my hand on the tree and lean against it for a moment, catching my breath. Seems like running still takes a lot of energy. I should have spent more time doing cardio in the past.

    Suddenly, I remember I was supposed to be running from something. I turn around and check my path. Looks like I wasn’t followed. If the rabbit is anything like it used to be, then it probably doesn’t want confrontations. It makes me less nervous to imagine it was just acting in self defense. Preemptively. Finally, I catch my breath. The tree next to me is pretty tall. A view from the top should help me find some sort of shelter.

    I inspect the tree to make sure nothing scary is on the branches. Deciding it’s safe, I climb to the top. It’s really dark. There isn’t much to see in the distance. I don’t see any obvious signs of caves or houses. I keep looking until I notice, very faintly, there’s a light between some hills. Perhaps fire? A sign of civilization? There isn’t much else for me to do, so that’s my destination.

    Time to get out of the tree. As I drop down, my eye catches some movement. Focusing on it, sigh, it’s the damn rabbit. I was really hoping it wasn’t predatory. At least I know it’s coming this time.

    I land and put up my guard again, waiting for it to strike. It didn’t take long. It’s so fast, I understand how it got me last time. But, now that I’m more present, I can see what’s happening. The rabbit’s leg swipes and it’s claws extend toward my neck. Decapitation, again? Let’s not make this a habit. I duck down below the swipe. At the same time, I go for an open palm strike toward the side of the creature. My hand ignites, leaving a bright trail behind its path. The side of my hand connects with the ribs of the rabbit. Its fur singes, it squeals, and is sent flying a few yards.

    I take my previous defensive stance and ready myself, but the rabbit turned toward the bush it came from and scurried off. Good. It’s not like I wanted to kill it. I just didn’t want to die. Content, I let out a long sigh and put my hands on my knees. The adrenaline is still pumping.

    Okay, now it’s time to go to the light I saw. I reorient myself and head in the direction I had decided on before. As I walk, I think about the events that just happened, my new strength, Cas, the future, and a lot of other things. I have a lot of questions and my head feels hazy. Who is Castor? Why must I become the strongest? What does that mean? Do I have a choice in any of this? What are the people on Gemini going to be like? At the very least, I’ve gotten a couple answers. The flame in my soul seems to enhance most of my basic abilities like eyesight, reflexes, durability, speed, and strength. Strangely, it seems like my stamina didn’t get the same increase. It kind of feels like I’m able to push my body’s limits instead of everything being just… improved. I don’t know. Conjuring the magical fire didn’t seem to make me any more tired, though. Further testing is required, I guess.

    I’d love to keep playing around with all of this, but safety comes first. This whole situation is crazy and I’d prefer not to be some hero, but I can’t do anything if I’m dead. I continue my walk. I start to think about my past. Everything is fuzzy. Some bits and pieces are easier to see. I remember being a soldier. I remember doing research. I remember hurting people. Loving someone. Betrayal. Atonement. Dying. My neck begins to sting and my head starts to ache. I tap my wrists on my temples to relieve some of the pain.

    The hum of the sky machine begins to intensify. It’s agitating. My headache is not appreciating it. I look up at the machine and see a small light break off of it. The light slowly gets brighter. Now bigger. And now it’s getting even bigger. I think it’s coming straight at me, really fast, too. I take a big breath and start running as fast as I can.

    Without warning, I’m tackled from behind. My aggressor and I hit the ground in unison as the light smashes down behind us, creating a small crater and kicking up a cloud of dust. I catch myself and turn towards the assailant. Before I could say anything, they already have a hand over my mouth and are signaling me to be quiet. They let go of my face and wave their other arm in a circle above their head.

    A shimmering veil surrounds us like a dome. I can see through it, but the outside is slightly obscured. The stranger is still gesturing for me to be silent. They don’t seem harmful. I trust them and remain still. For a moment, everything is quiet. Then, a small humming machine flies by the dome and stops at the crater. From the machine, a few flashes of light illuminate the hole in the ground. It seems satisfied then floats straight up toward the humming machine. We wait in silence for quite a long time. I’m starting to get bored, honestly. I sit comfortably, lean back, and stare at the person who hit me. They appear to be male. Their face is obscured by some heavy eyewear and some light clothing.

    Finally, the guy who assaulted me stands up, waves away the veil, and offers me a hand. I take it and lift myself up. He says, “What the hell are you?” I’m caught off guard and, to be honest, kind of pissed off by this question.

    “I’m a person. What the hell are you? What the hell was that flying thing?” I reply.

    He laughs and lets go of my hand. The man takes off his eyewear and smiles at me. He calmly replies, “I’m a person, too. We call those things ‘birds.’ They’re King’s sentries.” I scrunch my face and squint in confusion. I don’t think that explained anything. While exhaling slowly, he stretches his shoulders a bit, visually relieving some of his stiffness. “Sorry for earlier. I saw you fighting with the rabbit and followed you,” the man says softly.

    Ah, perhaps he doesn’t know about these powers? Maybe I came across like one of the monsters. Hmm, that makes no sense. That veil earlier looked like magic. As I understood from Cas, everyone is powerful. Anyway, I speak up, “Oh, yeah, I’m pretty strong. I was just defending myself, though.”

    The guy looks confused, “Strong? Haha, apparently not that strong. I saw you die. The rabbit killed you back there.” I am embarrassed hearing this. “Then a few minutes later, you were back. During your rematch, you didn’t even kill it.” He starts to laugh again then continues, “I have a lot of questions, buddy.” I don’t want to talk to him anymore.

    I change the subject, “I need shelter. I’m heading toward the light source over that way.”

    The guy relaxes his shoulders and put a hand on mine. I flinch a little bit. He says, “That’s my home village. I’ll take you there.” He reaches out a hand and says, “I’m Rigel. Nice to meet you.”

    I reluctantly put my hand in his and shake it. “I’m Po-” My throat closes up. I can’t seem to say my name. I clear my throat and try again. “I’m Lux.” This came out easily. I am concerned. Did Cas actually change my name? Does she have some sort control over me? No catch my ass.

    “Well, Lux, let’s get you back to my place. My sister can’t cook but you don’t look like you can, either, so what choice do either of us have? Haha.” He sounds like he’s joking but his face says he’s hoping I’m secretly a master chef.

    I tell him I can eat almost anything, so I’ll be fine. Rigel gives me a pained smile. We walk in silence toward his village.


    The gravel crunches beneath my boots. It’s a nice change from all the grass and dirt. The walk was quite long. Rigel kept trying to lighten the mood with some jokes, but I really wasn’t in the mood. I feel kind of bad letting him flail around trying to connect with me, but it was funnier that way. He seems like a nice person. I’m probably very lucky I met him first. Or maybe it wasn’t luck. I have no clue how much Castor has orchestrated things. If only she’d answer the stupid rock. I have so many questions for her.

    The village is nice. Not very large, I think. There’s a couple rows of well-built homes, mostly made of brick and wood. A couple appear lit up, but there isn’t anyone outside their homes. There’s a larger building in the center and a couple nicely decorated ones around it. Perhaps public spaces. Some strange animals occupy wooden pens by the houses. Livestock, I guess? I’ve never spent any time near animals.

    “Here we are!” Rigel suddenly exclaims. I wasn’t expecting him to be so loud, especially this late in a place so quiet. I reflexively covered my ears, to which he mouthed an “oops.”

    Rigel fiddles with the lock on the door of the cottage we stopped beside. A couple thumps and an expletive later, the door opens. He waves his arm and tells me to come inside.

    The smell of stew permeates the room. I assume his sister is cooking. Admittedly, his comments about her cooking had me worried, but I don’t think I have anything to worry about. I’m curious what she looks like.

    “Meissa! I brought something weird home!” Rigel yells. I’m annoyed that he keeps referring to me as a thing. I choose to remain silent this time. “Meissa!” he yells, again.

    A huskier voice than I expect shouts back, “I heard you the first time! Give me a damn second!” I’m more curious about her now. Rigel shrugs and sits down. He points at a chair and tells me to sit. I lean back against the wall instead, defiantly. He shrugs again. We wait patiently for his sister. I cross my arms and close my eyes, imagining her appearance. I realize I don’t really know what Rigel looks like either. His cloak and eyewear block most of his face. It’s kind of weird he didn’t take them off immediately after entering. I ask him why he’s wearing his gear still. He tells me it’s because “it looks cool.”

    Meissa turns the corner of the kitchen as I’m lost in thought. I almost didn’t notice; I was distracted. She’s a lot smaller than I imagined. Probably half a foot shorter than Castor. She stares at me confused, “Rigel what the hell? You said you brought a weird thing home but it looks like a guest.” She puts the bowl of stew she’s holding down in front of him. He laments that they stew has cabbage in it. As Rigel attempts to grab the spoon from her she flips it onto the floor. After wiping her hands on her shirt, she extends a hand out to me, “I’m sorry about him. He’s kind of an ass.” Rigel makes noises of disagreement. “You get used to it and then start to tune it out. My name is Meissa.” I shake her hand. I like her more than Rigel already. She continues, “So what’s your name and what brings you here?”

    Rigel starts to speak but I cut him off, “It’s kind of a story but, to keep it short, I have nowhere else to go. Rigel invited me here for shelter. Oh, and you can call me Lux.” Slurping noises attack my ears. Meissa begins thinking. She puts her hand to chin and hums.

    Meissa says, “What’s the whole story? The short version told me almost nothing.”

    Rigel then starts speaking with food in his mouth, “I shaid the shame thing but he wouldn’t chalk.”

    She waves her hand at him dismissively, “Stop, just eat. Do you want any food?” I nod and thank her. She quickly sets up another bowl and hands it to me. She says, “I don’t blame you for staying quiet around him. Honestly it’s all you can do, sometimes.” Meissa chuckles. I think they get along better than they let on. She grabs my attention again saying, “Talk to me though. Why are you here?” I flinch. Her face is pretty serious. She nods at me, waiting for a response. I nod back reactively. She’s a little scary.

    She walks me to the table and sits her face in her hands. It reminds me of Cas and it makes me uneasy. I tell her, “Um, well, I’m not from here. I’m from another planet.” The siblings look at each other, pause, and then back at me. They say nothing but wait for me to continue.

    I tell them about my reincarnation, about Castor, how she lit my soul and sent me on a quest. I admit that a rabbit killed me the first time around, but I was sent here again. Rigel confirms excitedly to Meissa that he saw this happen. They ask me about my past, but I have a hard time telling them anything about myself. My head starts hurting and the memories are hazy. They’re surprisingly accepting of the story. I was expecting to be met with “you’re lying” or “what are you hiding”, etc. They listened like they were happy to have something new happen around town. They tell me that those with lit souls, as I call it, are referred to as “kindled.” Both Rigel and I are kindled. Rigel tells me he was born with it, but Meissa was not. As it turns out, most people are unkindled.

    Meissa speaks up, “So, this Castor is like a deity or something?” Her eyes are bright with curiosity. “I’ve never heard of her before. You sure she’s real?” Ah, here comes the disbelief. I was ready for this. I guess they just held their questions until the end of the story.

    I pull out the tearstone from my shirt and show it to them. I say, “Cas gave me this rock that’s supposed to allow me to communicate with her, but she hasn’t been answering.” Both of them stand up and gasp.

    Rigel points at the rock and exclaims, “That’s an ansible!” Meissa nods her head and then stares at me wide-eyed and mouth agape. He then says, “Those are insanely rare and probably one of the most useful things in the world.” Meissa nods again.

    She collects herself and then tells me, “An ansible is basically a means of instant communication. They come in pairs. One stone relays sounds it hears to it’s twin without delay and across any distance.” Rigel nods.

    I hold it up and examine it. I’m not sure what to say, but I speak anyway, “Well, that would sound impossible if I didn’t already go through weirder events.”

    The siblings sit back down and calm down. Rigel starts, “It’s worth a fortune. There used to be a lot of them, but King had them destroyed. They’re extremely useful for military coordination; destroying them made sure no one else could use them against him.” Meissa nods and sighs sadly.

    I have tons of questions. Who is King? Is he the strongest? Do I have to surpass him? How the hell am I supposed to do that? My mind is racing, I’m tired, I just want to stop thinking. Before I can say anything, though, Meissa has a question of her own.

    She moves the conversation along, “So, why did you accept Castor’s proposal? Did you just really want the power? Why not deny it and rest in peace? If what you said is true, you lived your life already. Did you have regrets?”

    I remind her I don’t really remember too much about my past, but I do confirm that I feel some unfocused regret. It would be easier if I could understand my own feelings. I whisper, “I don’t know.” My chest tightens a bit. I lean forward and start to relax on my arms, too tired to keep up my guard any longer. “I think part of me wanted the power, part of me was afraid to say no, and part of me thought maybe I could fix whatever it is that’s bothering me.” They tilt their heads in unison. Rigel looks confused and Meissa looks empathetic. “When I was reincarnated, or resurrected, or whatever, my feelings were more clear. Cas told me a story about a girl who became the first kindled. She spoke about the girl like she was an idiotic child, but I just felt sad for her.”

    Rigel gets excited and loudly says, “The Witch!” I raise my eyebrows and stare at him. I ask if they know anything about the girl in the story. He goes on, “They call the first kindled ‘The Witch.’ She was supposedly the most powerful kindled of all time. Far more powerful than even King.”

    This is good. Any info is good. I ask Rigel, “Can you tell me more about her?”

    Rigel clears his throat and says confidently, “Nope!” Meissa lets her head fall backwards. He says, “Well, I know a little.”

    Meissa sits back up and puts her hand on her brother’s head. She says softly, “It’s okay, you don’t have to talk.” He pouts. She looks at me directly and says, “There isn’t a lot of information about her. She died a couple centuries ago. Everything I know about her is from stories I’ve heard.”

    I sit up, posture straight. “I’ll take any information, honestly. All myths and stories have some truth to them, right?”

    She agrees, asks Rigel to fetch water for everyone, and begins her story.

    Chapter 4 – Amity –>

  • Time Trials – Flower / Star Cup (8/21/24)

    I was able to insanely reduce my times on most of the tracks in these cups. Delfino Square is out of my reach right now, though. For some reason, I just can’t seem to do better than my teenage self. So, uh, go young me? I’ll catch up eventually.

    Track3 LapFastest Lap
    DH1:34:2790:30:179
    WP2:26:7440:47:799
    SR2:03:0680:40:162
    DKP2:20:8770:45:223
    TTC1:59:8180:37:635
    MC1:57:4940:38:599
    AF2:04:4040:41:366
  • Meteor – Chapter 2

    Meadow

    <– Chapter 1 – Abyss

    Ahem. “What the fuck just happened?” I’m still breathing frantically; my heart hasn’t adjusted yet. Castor smiles, chuckles, smacks her face a couple times, and puts on a serious expression. Not a few moments later does she crack and start laughing again. I’m showing obvious irritation.

    “I’m sorry,” she begins. Castor takes a deep breath and sighs. “There’s a lot-“

    “I died in like ten seconds!” I interrupt, still angry.

    Her eyes open and her crimson gaze pierces through me. There’s no sign of her previous playfulness. The look she’s giving me actually instilled a sort of primal fear within me. I shut my mouth and pay attention. What the hell is she?

    She starts again, “There’s a lot I didn’t tell you. I thought it best to show you through example.” Show what through example? Whatever that fearsome creature was? I thought I was supernaturally gifted. That beast ended me effortlessly. She paused as if waiting for my thoughts to finish. Her intensity softens a bit. “The creature you met was a simple rabbit. One of the weakest animals on the planet. In the past, it wasn’t uncommon to accidentally scare one to death.” I couldn’t believe it. Before I could open my mouth, I feel a cold finger press up against my lips and a body pressed up against my back. Startled, I freeze. “Shh… I’m still talking,” her ghostly breath chills my ear. She lets go of my shoulder. I turn around to look at her but there is only the void.

    Her voice once again emanates from the throne. I face her, bewildered. “You’re a good person, I know it. But you’re also arrogant. It’s true that I’ve gifted you with strength, but strength is nothing without wisdom. Bravery without fear is stupidity, not courage.”

    Yes, ma’am.

    “Gemini is dangerous for someone without fear. It’s a place so radiant with power, the only way to survive is to be scared.” She exhales deeply then stretches, letting out some strangely cute noises. Seemingly having shaken off her previous gravitas, Castor smiles. “Blah blah blah. None of that is any fun, I know. You used your power a bit, yeah?” She claps, startling me. “How was it?”

    I swallow and clear my throat. “U-uh it was… fun?” She giggles. I have no idea how to feel about her anymore.

    “Good! Keep that enthusiasm.” Was that sarcasm? Castor takes a quick walk around her throne and then lays down across its arms. “So, Gemini. It’s awful.” Her bare feet kick. “It used to be a pretty weak planet but, a couple hundred years ago, some inhabitants figured out how to light the fire in their souls.” I can feel my nerves coming back to me. I’m interested now.

    The spotlight on the throne suddenly turns off. A smaller square light appears mid air. Shadows cast by Castor’s hands appear and her voice fills the entirety of the void, seemingly from every direction. “Once upon a time, there was a girl in a meadow.” The shadows form a tree and a figure of a small girl. A puppet show, really? I’m only just noticing I’m in a chair of my own.

    The girl begins to hold her face. “Boo hoo! Boo hoo!” Castor cries out. “If only I had but one friend! Boo hoo! It’s not fair!” The girl runs toward the tree and sits down, hugging her knees. “The whiny girl lived alone. The world had taken everything from her. No more parents, no more siblings, no more pets, no more toys.” Shadowy shapes of all kinds appear flying across the light into a shadowy trash bin, which then disappears. “This pathetic child could do nothing to help herself. She simply wished for someone to save her.” A knight on a horse dances across the meadow. The little girl excitedly watches as the knight approaches, but he does not stop for her. Her head bows and she begins to sob again, this time convincingly. My heart drops at the sound.

    Castor suddenly makes some wooshing noises as she scrambles the scenery into a whirlpool. The shadows now shows rain, a cave, and the girl lying down inside. “‘If only I had a friend’, the girl says again. ‘Then I could at least share my suffering.’ But no one wanted to be her friend.” The rocky cave expands into geometric walls and windows. The girl walks across the hallway. “The little girl, in her misguided desperation for companionship, thought she might lure someone in if she had something to give. So she began reading.”

    Books fly into organized shelves while the girl sits at a desk, flipping pages rapidly. One book replaces hers, and then the next, and the next, until all of then have been exhausted of their knowledge. “She absorbed never ending pages of information, hoping to create something new and interesting. In her studies, she came across the idea of the spirit, the soul, or whatever it was called in whatever book she had her nose in.” The library melts into a stormy sea and the girl is submerged, her body hollow. There is a small circle in the center of her chest.

    “She spent countless hours, years, decades, peering into herself. Partly because she believed there was something more to this hollowness within her, and partly because she was only comfortable around herself anymore.” Castor pauses for an uncomfortable amount of time. When she started again, it scared me. Louder than necessary, she said, “After so long, the sad little girl found the spark. Her soul lit up.” The circle in the center of the girl glows brightly, then ignites into a flame.

    The sound of multiple voices giggling fill the void. “I did it! I did it!” The girl dances. “I have something to show everyone! I’ll be so popular!” She continues dancing. “And I’ll finally be happy.”

    The shadows converge back into the shape of Castors hands. They open and close while an unintelligible crowd of voices murmur. “The girl showed everyone what she learned. The new power she had achieved was astounding. Godlike. Celestial. For a while, she was revered. She was popular. She was happy.” The girl is now in the front of a classroom. “She taught student after student what took her a lifetime to learn in a matter of weeks.”

    “It wasn’t long before nearly the whole world had caught up to her. But none of them, not even the discoverer of these new skills, had the wisdom to use it responsibly.” Horrible imagery appears before me. “Cities were built and destroyed in a day, creatures were imbued with abilities they should not have, wars were fought, people died, people were brought back. Some wished for death. Some wished for life.” I couldn’t speak if I wanted to. “The girl had once again lost everything. This time, she knew it was her fault.”

    The lights all disappear and I am enveloped by the void once again. Castor’s throne lights up like before. She’s sitting gleefully, her hands are holding her pale cheeks. “What did you think? I’ve been working on it for a long time,” she said eagerly.

    I try my best to speak, “It was intense.”

    She pouts and sits back. “It’s supposed to be fun, Lux.”

    “Lux?” I ask.

    “Well, you didn’t wanna pick a new name so Lux it is. It’s better but still close enough for you to be comfy, I think,” she says with sweet eyes. She’s all over the place, man.

    Whatever. That’s fine. “Okay, so, if that was… 200 years ago? What’s Gemini like now?”

    Castor stands up and walks towards me. She kneels down and meets my gaze. “It’s broken. There’s a sort of equilibrium now, but things are not as they should be.” She makes me feel cold. Her aura is chilling. “I need you to fix it.”

    I’m not sure why I have to do anything. “What’s wrong with the way things are now? I mean, if the new status quo is what it is now, what makes this any different from any sort of revolution?”

    “Everything will die,” she says without hesitation. I remain silent. “The soul takes energy from Nowhere.” She looks around, then spreads her arms, gesturing for me to look around too. “This place used to be bright. Nowhere is the source of all life. Every soul is a link to this place. The soul is given a constant and steady supply of light for as long as it is alive.” She stands up and walks back to her throne. “A soul doesn’t need much to persist. Barely a trickle. Igniting a soul is like opening a floodgate. It’s many orders of magnitude greater than a single soul needs, leading to extraordinary strength.” Castor leans her cheek against her fist. “Now do you get it?”

    I think I do. “So, this affects more than just Gemini?”

    “Correct,” she says.

    I continue, “That means.. when Nowhere has run out, no more souls?”

    “You’ve got it. So smart!” She begins clapping for me. “Everyone dies eventually. When they do, their soul is reclaimed by Nowhere. But the people of Gemini burn more energy than they are naturally supposed to be afforded. I want you to stop them.”

    Wow. Okay. No catch, she said. It’ll be fun, she said. Shuffling on the floor, I cross my legs and try to relax a bit. I give her an earnest look and say, “Why can’t you do it? You’re clearly stronger than me.”

    Castor replies, “That’s why I can’t. I’m the only reason this place hasn’t collapsed yet. I need to stay here and keep it alive.” She’s starting to look bored. “Are you ready to go back yet?”

    Fuck no. “I’m uh, not sure what I would even need to do.” She closes her free hand, then opens it again. On her palm is a blue teardrop shaped rock attached to a necklace. She throws it to me. I catch it. “What is this?”

    With half-closed eyes, Castor smiles and says, “Wear it and you’ll be able to hear my lovely voice wherever you are. Normally it wouldn’t be necessary but cross plane communication takes a lot of effort nowadays.” Perhaps she’s tired, not bored. “Just try not to die. Spend your first few days finding shelter and a place to practice with your new powers. We can talk again later, ‘kay?”

    Okay. I guess. My enthusiasm is waning but I’ll do as she says for now. “I’m ready, I guess.”

    She snaps her fingers. A ring of light echoes from the source of the sound and hits me like a wave, again. “Don’t touch the rabbits,” she warns me sarcastically.

    I am enveloped in a warm greyness. The grey became black, which then became a deep purple. I’m greeted by the stars as I lie in the grass in the meadow.

    Chapter 3 – Village –>

  • PHANTOMIME – Mori Calliope [Review]

    PHANTOMIME – Mori Calliope [Review]

    Background

    To begin with: I’m a huge fan of Mori’s music. I, almost embarrassingly, was in the top 3% of listeners according to Spotify (thanks for that). It started with a song or two showing up on my YouTube recommendations. The first song I remember hearing was “Off With Their Heads.” Sometimes songs take me a few listens to appreciate but the music and lyrics (along with what little I knew about the VTuber industry) captured me pretty quickly.

    Since then, I’ve listened to all of her originals over and over and over again. She’s a very prolific and accomplished musician / lyricist. I, like many others, fear her eventual burnout if she doesn’t take it easy.

    Now that you know a bit about my experience with the artist, let’s talk about PHANTOMIME.

    Initial Impressions

    I absorb music through many listen-throughs and I generally prefer full albums to individual tracks. The artist put the songs in the order they did on purpose; I’m listening to them in that order. The first listen-through was a bit mindless. I didn’t really pay that much attention. (I was busy playing an early access game under NDA so I was a bit distracted 🤫). But I had a great time, regardless.

    It felt like a fun mix of genres. Very dancy and what I thought I had come to expect from Mori. I would have already recommended it due to her consistency. But I knew I would need to give it another go or two to fully get it.

    After a good sleep, dealings with work, and general life activities, I had the time to sit down and listen to the music mindfully.

    It’s fucking fantastic.

    I want to just gush, but I have to keep some semblance of structure or this whole thing turns into an even less comprehensible mess than it already is.

    “PHANTOMIME” seems to me like an obvious portmanteau of “phantom” and “pantomime.” Sounds to me like another word for a VTuber, or digital performer in general.

    • Ratings for songs are given in relation to other songs on the album, not music as a whole.

    You’re going from the bottom of hell to this magnificent rise. For this album, I was initially thinking, ‘We went through the seven layers of hell to get down to the bottom for Left For Dead Lullaby, now we have to go back up through the layers’ and I thought, ‘That is so boring, we have to come up with a different approach. So just decided, let’s make the first track super uplifting, like we’re flying back through hell, and then after that we can go and continue a different story.

    This song is supposed to be really uplifting. It’s a really uplifting way to jump into the album, I feel. I wanted to start off with something that’s, “Don’t give up.” It’s meant to be listened to right after “Left For Dead Lullaby” from JIGOKU 6.

    “Tide,” on the other hand, truly does paint a picture of you taking a jetpack out of hell. The lyrics initially presents you a body that’s cracked, tired, and losing the meaning of what makes you who you are. Still, it calls out hoping anyone notices.

    That spark in your soul exists regardless of how your body feels. The rest of the song is pretty inspirational and uplifting. Getting up and making any sort of progress towards what you want, even if no one is looking.

    I also have to point out this sick line:

    Passion fades, but so do scars.

    Banger.

    It took me a few listen-throughs to really appreciate it.

    I’ma be real. This is my least favorite on the album.

    “SNEAKING (revenge)” is a re-do of her previous song “SNEAKING.” Yes, the song gets better as I listen to it, but I’m not really a fan of the chorus. Nor am I a fan of Metal Gear.

    The music itself is great. I do like it much more than the original.

    “Go-Getters” is the ending theme for Suicide Squad Isekai. It’s an extremely catchy song full of energy and bounce. Before writing this, I didn’t know it was made for a show, I just knew it was one of her more popular songs at the moment. It makes more sense now, haha.

    Knowing it’s for Suicide Squad, which seems to focus on Harley Quinn, the lyrics make a lot more sense. There’s a lot of confidence and chaos.

    Ah, okay, ya got me. I have more to say.

    MUSIC

    This is, as far as I know, the first song she’s done in a metal style. It. fucking. slaps. It’s so well done. Her voice was perfect for this piece. Her natural sound is pretty deep and husky(👌), but she’s very comfortable in the higher “cuter” ranges. The genre shift really helped show off those lower pitches.

    Alongside the theme of the song, the higher “cute” notes give a nice juxtaposition that’s better explained by the lyrics. The gravelly noises and growling give me chills and I’m very happy with this musical direction, being a metal head, myself.

    LYRICS

    This song is an obvious call out of the industry she’s in. It starts heavy with “テメぇの所為です” (“It’s all your fucking fault” in JP) followed by a scream.

    In the music video, television-headed big-wigs place bets on girls forced to compete with each other, much like horse racing. These “lovely animals” are promised their dreams only to be used, broken down, and thrown away once they’ve reached the end of their usefulness.

    Mori is depicted walking into their gambling arena and very literally bashes their heads in with a spiked bat.

    This shit goes so hard.

    Huge shout out to Yuki Tsujimura and MEGMETAL for the arrangement of the song.

    10/10     10/10
         10/10          10/10
              10/10
        10/10      10/10

    Speaking of which, this song is NU METAL. ????? Did I expect her to go in this direction? Yes. Was I ready for it? Apparently not.

    This song feels like it was made for someone (read: me) who grew up listening to Linkin Park, Hoobastank, Korn, Slipknot, etc. “Cult Following” is an absolutely head-banging good time. Did I mention the music was done by WARGASM?

    The quality of this song is insane, and it’s crazy to see how far she’s come from her first album, Your Mori.

    My initial impression was that singer is confidently dancing in an active war zone. Taunting the opposition to take aim and fire while inspiring allies to stand up and make a decision already.

    I’m paraphrasing her own words here now because I didn’t get the song at all, apparently. “Cult Following” is about cult-like figureheads. Celebrities, figureheads, etc, anyone who would have a cult following and how they can abuse that position. The singer preys upon weak subjects, spouting obvious red flags to tempt their victim into their clutches. The singer teases the opposition from their position of safety.

    She wants people to make their own decisions on whether or not the figures they follow (Mori included) are harmful.

    Mori does mention that this song is not an accurate representation of her true feelings, but rather an exploration of another perspective.

    The second new song on the album. What a joyride this one is.

    “DONMAI” is a genre changing roller coaster. Mori expresses feelings high and low, while the music shifts between rap, rock, and… swing? I love it.

    The beat is really driving, the instruments fly. It’s such a good time if you like having your expectations subverted. There’s so much going on that you could easily listen to this song on repeat and notice something new every loop.

    “Donmai” is a Japanese word borrowed from the English “don’t mind.” The meaning is close to “shake it off” or “don’t worry.”

    Much of the lyrics show off the imposter syndrome that Mori feels. Having listened to a lot of her music, it seems she’s been plagued by this feeling for quite a long time now. She puts herself down pretty harshly and follows up with how every goal she achieves is just the precursor to the next, making each achievement feel meaningless in a way. But she shakes it off and still bets it all on herself.

    Being a random “want to be” chosen and made to be a “somebody” is a sick lyric.

    A sweet and melodic piece with some funky city-pop vibes thrown in. The combination of Mori’s more melodic side in combination with Kobo’s cute voice make for a track you could listen to on repeat while driving down the freeway at night.

    This track feels more like “everybody” music. It’s a break from the deeply personal and heavy songs directly before it. “Midnight Mayoi” shifts the mood of the album in a more relaxed direction.

    The genre shifts into a bit of a thoughtful hip-hoppy vibe with the ever present intro piano in the background. I really enjoyed listening to this one. I really need to listen to her thoughts on this song.

    There’s a rap section where she rhymes the same sound four times in a row:

    The age of misfit, optimistic that I missed it
    Until I flash back to every wall that my fist hit

    I only point it out because she does this a lot and I recently found out she thinks it’s kind of cringe to do so. She rolls her eyes like, “wow such a rap god 👏👏👏.” At herself, haha. If it makes sense, she gives it a pass.

    The fourth new song on the album. “Last Days” picks the vibe up from where “skeletons” left it and kind of flies off with it.

    This song soars slowly yet passionately, building up, falling down, rising again and finishing with an abrupt dive. The energy and emotion brought out by the chord progressions and beautifully arranged instrumentation make this a definite favorite on the album.

    “Last Days” is written from the perspective of someone who is watching someone they care about leave from their life. This isn’t with a specific method in mind. People can leave from your life by moving, death, ending their career, however. It’s a sad song that most people will be able to relate to in some way.

    There are also a few references to her older songs (specifically “Red,” “End of a Life,” “Cursed Night,” and “Left for Dead Lullaby”).

    The final new song on the album. Immediately after the end of “Last Days,” we’re met with a slightly more energetic acoustic guitar, bouncing some chords back and forth. I’m given visions of summer, wind, grass, and clouds.

    The song invokes a feeling of nostalgia in a way that makes you feel melancholic about what the relentless march of time will inevitably take from you.

    In the end, living in the now and appreciating the view in front of you while you’re still there is the key to happiness.

    I have a feeling I’ll be coming back to this song, specifically, quite a lot. Anything with a “live in the moment” message hits me pretty hard.

    Thank you.

    I had (and will continue to have) a great time with this album. I’ve said this before, but Mori really has come a long way from Your Mori. It’s a great album in its own right, but the quality and depth of her music has improved drastically.

    I’m excited to see where she goes from here.

  • Meteor – Chapter 1

    Abyss

    The soundless abyss creates an imaginary hum in my ears. “Where am I?” I could hear my voice ring out in the empty dark void. Attempting to look around feels pointless. I can’t tell which way is which, anyway. A sudden vertical beam of light rips through the blanket of darkness. After the pain fades and my eyes adjust, I notice a large crimson throne decorated with gold. Upon the throne sits a beautiful but ghostly woman wearing strange, wispy, black clothes.

    “You’re nowhere! Well, to be precise, you’re in Nowhere. But… it’s also nowhere? I’m not very good with mortal words.” She chuckles lightly; her face shows what seems to me a genuine smile. The woman uncrosses her legs and leans forward a bit, resting her head in her hands. She hums an ethereal tune while kicking her feet. Her red eyes look me up and down. I think she’s appraising me. “What’s your name?”

    I pull myself together and try to remember. Oh yeah, my name is-

    “Pollux,” I answer.

    She sits back, her brow furrowed and eyes closed. Her arms cross while she seems to ponder my name. “No, I don’t like it. Pick something else.” I have no clue what to tell her.

    “Uhm, what?” I said confused.

    “Pick a new name; it can be anything! Just not Pollux,” she says with a smile.

    I’m annoyed. I resist grumbling. “How about you tell me your name, first?”

    She answers enthusiastically, “My name is Castor! Cas is fine, though.”

    “Mmmm, no. I don’t like it. Pick something else.” I turn my head and cross my arms. She giggles, shifts around in her throne, and then clears her throat.

    “I can’t change my name. Everyone knows me by this one.” Castor makes a face that lets me know she realizes the irony in her words. I think she’s teasing me. Before I can say anything, she begins to explain, “Ok. Let’s get the exposition out of the way, yeah? You died.” I wince a bit hearing that, but I’m not exactly surprised; my neck still feels the cold steel. She continues, “You died and now you’re here. And soon you’ll be going somewhere else! You don’t need your old yucky name.”

    I’m more annoyed than I was before. Having regained a bit of composure, I speak up, “Is this how it always is? This sounds like something that should be taken more seriously.” She sighs, crosses her legs again, and puts on a less cheery expression. Something between melancholy and seriousness.

    “Not always,” she says calmly. She looks down at her lap silently. Her head raises and our eyes meet, “You’ve been given another chance. A chance to achieve what you’ve always wanted. You will be a new person with a new life on a new planet. A planet in need of a hero, someone who can save them from a terrible fate. I will also grant you power beyond your imagination to aid your endeavors.” This thin pale lady’s bright red eyes feel like they’re burning holes through me. Cas, I suppose, I should be calling her.

    “Why me, Cas?” I force myself to ask. She looks as if she was anticipating the question. I didn’t want to be rude. The idea of starting over does sound nice. I’d readily accept if I wasn’t so suspicious of the whole thing. Power? What kind of power?

    Castor beams at the sound of her name being said. “Because you deserve it! I’ve seen the good you’ve tried to put out into your world. It’s sad how unappreciated it went. I think you deserve another chance, no?” Her smile is different this time. Not like the genuine one I saw earlier. My suspicion grows. I ask her what it is she’s hiding. Castor acts offended, “Nothing! There’s no catch. New life. Big power. New planet. Big story. I can make good on all of these promises, ok?”

    All the good I put out into the world? I’m starting to think she hasn’t seen one second of my life. I mean, I don’t even know what she is. A god? A reaper? A con artist? Should I be hiding my wallet? Anyway, there may not be any harm in doing what she says. I did actually die. Extraordinary abilities sound great. Worst that happens is I can’t do what she expects of me and she gets someone else, right? Then I can just be some powerful hermit or something… After enough silence, I finally give her a response, “Ok.”

    Castor hops off her velvety throne excitedly and claps her hands together. The sound is somehow smothered by the darkness. “Excellent! In exchange for these wonderful abilities, you just have to become the strongest in the world!” I recall there not being a catch. She puts her heels together, stands up straight with a hand behind her back, and gives a quick finger snap. A ring of light echoes from the source of the sound and hits me like a wave. Before I can even ask what the hell she means by “becoming the strongest,” I am enveloped in a warm greyness. I couldn’t speak, nor could I seem to move. Rather, I couldn’t tell if I was moving or not.

    The grey became black, which then became a deep purple. Tiny white holes poked through the haze like stars in the sky. After a few seconds, I start to realize they were stars in the sky. I can feel my arms again. Turning my head to my left, I feel there is grass on my neck. I’m lying down, it seems. I get up, stretch, and wipe the void off my clothes. Giving my surroundings an actual look around, everything seems pretty close to what I’m used to. Trees, flowers, grass, hills, stars, two moons, giant humming machine in the sky. Ok, that last one was actually strange. But otherwise, I expected more from a different planet, assuming Castor wasn’t lying about anything.

    I take a moment to breathe. My body feels the same, but somehow different. There’s a fire in my spirit that wasn’t there before. When I close my eyes, I can see it. This must be part of the power Castor granted me. She never gave me any sort of clue what it means, but I am eager to try things out. Magic was simply a story telling where I’m from. Perhaps, after what I’ve recently seen, I can believe something like that is real? I wouldn’t know how to perform any sort of spells but it’ll be fun to try, I guess.

    I open my palm and imagine conjuring fire. Not a moment later does fire appear. And a split second after that I am engulfed. Scared beyond belief, I flail like an idiot. It feels like it took me too long to realize that I wasn’t in any actual danger. I’m not burning. There’s definitely a cloak of flame around me. It’s definitely really hot. The grass and ground around me has turned to glass. I take a deep, hot breath in the inferno and calm myself. The flame extinguishes.

    I poke at the thick crystallized rainbow below me. Crack. The whole thing shatters into dust. Perhaps I should be careful with this new strength. Seems dangerous.

    Rustling from a nearby bush startles me. I turn to face the sound, revealing to me a small rodent-like creature with long ears. It’s cute. I take a few steps closer and hold out my hand, beckoning it towards me. The critter hops carelessly toward me. I wave my hand a bit and, not a moment later, I see my forearm fall to the ground. Before I can understand what’s happening, I find myself in a dark void.

    “Welcome back!” a familiar voice greets me.

    My hands grasp at my neck, I choke out some sounds something akin to words. I look up to see Castor smiling her genuine smile at me.

    Chapter 2 – Meadow –>

  • Rising Phonon Star

    Rising Phonon Star

    A while ago, I decided I was going to dedicate a significant portion of my life to getting good at fighting games. Specifically, Under Night In-Birth II [Sys:Celes].

    I’ve been into fighting games proper since about 2012, maybe. Smash Bros. has been a staple in my life for as long as it’s existed, but I didn’t go to a real tournament until after college. My first venue was The Bigger Balc in 2017. I got completely stomped in pools by the (at the time) second best Project M player.

    The experience truly was something else, and it sort of kick-started my fighting game “career.” I became interested in other fighting games for the first time. Finally getting over my years of complaining that “combo based fighting games are stupid,” ignorant child that I was. (After writing this, I realize I played an unhealthy amount of Soul Calibur II.)

    Skullgirls, to BlazBlue CF, to Pokken Tournament, to Tekken 7, to UNICLR, to Melty Blood, to Guilty Gear Strive, to Melty Blood TL, to UNI2.

    I played a lot of games but never was skilled enough to feel like I could confidently say I’m “good.” Very routinely I would get bodied by randoms or friends that just started playing too. Fundamentals, spatial awareness, etc never seemed to help me when I thought I should be better just because I’ve played longer. It wasn’t until I gave up any idea of being “good” or “doing things the right way” that I actually started improving. This happened super late. I loved Under Night, so the announcement for Under Night 2 made me super excited. That’s when I decided I would just play because I like the game, not because I want to be good.

    It’s funny that I see myself as having a growth mindset, feeling like it’s a superior paradigm to a results mindset, and then being held back by it in the end. It turns out that putting pressure on yourself to achieve results in the name of growth is practically the same thing. I was still looking for results to prove to myself that I was growing. Since realizing that, things have been going much better.

    I joined a beginner lobby Discord server for UNI2 (UNI2BL for short). Best decision I’ve ever made when it comes to fighting games. Friends came naturally; we bonded over a shared passion for the game. This pushed me to keep playing because I wanted to spend time with them and be able to talk about the game. Improvement came naturally as I got comfortable with the game. Cool things would happen on the screen and I’d think, “How do I do that?” I’d test it out and now I have a new tool.

    It’s a completely different feeling from, “I need to be able to do X. How do I go about it? What’s the best route to it? What should I be ready for if blah blah blah.”

    The difference between reading about the smell of a rose and actually smelling the damn flower.

    None of this is news to me, I guess. It’s stuff I’ve been saying for years. Very often, I feel like Alice Liddell (yeah, I looked up her last name).

    Anyway, the topic was supposed to be about Phonon, and my decision to become a good player. But a different good than the good I had been talking about. I started taking videos of my journey, editing things together and making it a part of my life, not just a game. I went to tournaments way out of my league, I helped new players, I spoke combo theory with peers. Just getting involved was the biggest step in my journey towards good.

    The videos I made aren’t very good, but it has been a source of motivation for me to play and keep going.

    Watching the fights is painful. The pain is an indicator I’ve gotten better, though, right?

    At the time of this post, the latest video in the playlist is “Phonon: 66C 623B 66B 236[B] timing,” which was made 4 months ago. It doesn’t feel like it was that long ago…

    Since the first video, I’ve climbed past D, past D+, past C, and am now firmly in C+. I had a hard time getting out of D back then, but a lot has happened since then. Jumping back into the game with a UNI2BL Crew Battle after a two month hiatus due to shingles (ugh) was definitely an experience. I grinded for a week to get my muscle memory back and did okay. I was actually very proud of myself and even managed to learn some new tricks. My friend and amazing player, Edea, said they noticed my improvement. That gave me too much of an ego boost, to be completely honest. But it was nice and I had a great time getting my ass beat in the crew battle. (Go Team Lavender 💜)

    You know that famous Bruce Lee quote?

    “I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who has practiced one kick 10,000 times.”

    Yeah, so. Again, I’ve known it for so so so long but never really grokked it. I play guitar and know that, if I practice the same thing over and over really slowly, I’ll get it down. For some reason, I didn’t apply that to fighting games.

    I had an entire epiphany during the week of practice before the crew battle. I don’t need to learn 10 combos. I just need one reliable combo and 10 ways to start it. This is even written out numerous times in guides, wikis, etc. Why didn’t it click sooner?? It’s been said to my face before, I’ve said to people before. Am I stupid??

    Well, finally, for whatever reason, it’s clicked. I’ve reduced my mental stack to a simple “just block and hit your combo.” That was enough to get me out of D. That left room for me to think about GRD a little bit. So I made it to C. That became kinda normal which led me to start thinking about adding more damage to my one true ol’ reliable bestest most favorite combo. Now I’m in C+.

    If things keep going like this, maybe I can confidently say I’m “good”?

  • Time Trials – Mushroom Cup

    I only recently got back into MKDS. I decided it was best to start small and work on improving one single cup at a time. Surprisingly, being an adult has made me better at the game, not worse (like I thought would happen).

    I drastically improved my times.

    Track3 LapFastest Lap
    F8C1:28:0540:28:971
    YF1:02:0730:20:132
    CCB1:45:2810:34:629
    LM1:58:0220:38:594
    Non-PRB

    This shows a speed-up of 1.5s, 1.3s, 2.8s, and an insane 9.2s, respectively. I’ve uploaded my times for review on the players page last week and should get my new placing soon. I believe they do their updates by hand every 1st, 15th, and 22nd, of the month.

    I will update this post once they do.

    PLACEMENT UPDATE

    With just my Mushroom Cup time improvements, I’ve gone from 1253 / 1472 to 1227 / 1494!

    Previously was in the 85th percentile, now 82nd.

    In all honesty, I don’t see myself getting so good that I’ll have times I can boast about. But, it’s still fun. Not sure how long I’ll keep that up, haha.

  • Checkmate (Yucha-P) – Piano Arrangement

    This is an arrangement I wrote for solo piano when I was, probably, around 19. I recently fixed up the soundfont and added a bit of flair.

    The song is basically a cover of a cover, haha. I thought the original was the Kagamine Len version but it turns out the original was with GUMI!

  • Returning to Mario Kart DS

    Returning to Mario Kart DS

    So, one of the GOATs of all time, Summoning Salt, put out a new video about Mario Kart DS. I’ve always loved MKDS and even thought it was the best MK game to date. At some point, I got discouraged from improving at the game because “it’s too hard,” “snaking hurts my hands,” “mk8 is the best one anyway.”

    WRONG. The video resparked the passion between me and this old racing game. I decided that, at the very least, I was going to upload all of my time trials to the official players page and get ranked. Then, maybe I’d be motivated to beat all my hard earned times?

    Well, I did upload my times. I did get ranked, and it did motivate me to try time trials again. I wasn’t wrong about snaking hurting my hands.

    Here are all the times I uploaded!

    Track3 Lap Fastest Lap
    F8C1:29:6470:29:505
    YF1:03:3120:20:743
    CCB1:48:1580:35:875
    LM2:07:4060:41:736
    DH1:42:4780:32:460
    DS1:55:0560:37:284
    WP2:41:5110:53:664
    SR2:25:2250:47:276
    DKP2:28:3460:48:554
    TTC2:09:1790:42:705
    MC1:59:7440:39:788
    AF2:13:6600:44:072
    WS2:28:6710:48:333
    PG2:14:6470:42:963
    BC2:26:2020:48:346
    RR2:27:7120:48:493
    rMC10:52:0900:16:975
    rMMF1:21:4610:26:144
    rPC1:13:0110:23:989
    rLC11:29:6590:39:184
    rDP11:15:1900:24:816
    rFS2:12:8140:44:008
    rBC22:15:4020:44:295
    rBP0:50:8890:09:764
    rKB20:54:4590:17:582
    rCM2:25:5680:48:240
    rLC22:16:8000:42:295
    rMB1:28:9600:29:267
    rCI21:09:2260:21:460
    rBB2:21:1390:46:569
    rSG1:41:2080:32:947
    rYC1:54:2690:37:566
    (Non-PRB times)

    As of August 8th, 2024, I was placed 1253th out of 1472 🏆.
    I think that’s pretty good for times I landed back in like 2010.

    Since then I’ve improved some times! I think I improved Luigi’s Mansion by 9 whole seconds. Insanity.

    Link to my players page, in case I forget somehow.

  • Making stupid stuff in Godot 4

    This has been really fun and I’ve learned so much these past few days. Ultimately, it would be really cool to have a playable Dragalia Lost based game. There’s so much to learn still, and I think it might be best to put the idea on hold until I have more experience.